NEO DIARIES : THE MOMENT OF TRUTH....A DARK CONVERSATION!

That night was really dark and disturbing! It was very silent and sedate in its own way! The moon was really big and it had a shallowish smocky feeling about it! It was as if everything around us had stopped responding and started freezing! A light wind, though occasionally flowing, made us realize that we were in real world. Amidst the mystic sultry surroundings, we four dark creatures were sitting in the rooftop and enjoying the stars above us! That night, we were very silent, don’t know why, as we have given up to the night and were allowing the darkness to talk! We were very high, just lit the 15th ciggarate and rounded it amongst us; an 80’s song in the backdrop was making us feel more relaxed! In between all the elixir’s and smoke clouds, Joe suddenly asked, “buddies, what is this, moment of truth”! I was taking the last drag, suddenly stopped and told “What”! Oh cummon Joe, don’t spoil the mood now with another blatant lingo from your mayhem’s dictionary! Give us a break! Joe instantly retaliated “Looser, I am not forcing anything, just asked, actually the term is ruining my mind for a couple of days”! Sid, with a bowl of elixir (technically vodka with Ice) screamed, “Oh Wait a min, Joe what happened to you suddenly”, Is everything all right, you are sounding grim mate”!! Joe said, “nothing, leave it…..”, there was a unusual pause in his words and we knew something was wrong!
“Mate, tell us, share, you will feel light, what is this moment of truth you are talking about?”, asked bro! Another 80’s song of the Ghai’s bouquet, Lata Mangeskar’s voice and wine, deadly combo! Anyways, back to the battlefield, Joe screamed, “I just faced my moment of truth, and I must say it makes or breaks a person, in my case, the status, so far, is unclear!” I instantly replied, “Will you please come to the point, what happened, is it something with Neha”! He stopped in between and looked at me, bottomed up ( aww, it was a cocktail, the guy was super high) and said, “ Yes, it’s all over in between us, we ended it up, the families ended it up officially and we are not going to see each us again in life”! We, all stumbled and said in unison, “What the …. And why didn’t you told us anything?” Sid said , “ cummon buddy, you guys were made for each other, four years in the relationship, going to marry in another 6-7 months, suddenly, cummon mate, just another fight, hota hai….talk with her tomorrow, all will be well! Joe shouted “No fuck No!”, you don’t understand guys, that is our moment of truth, we were NEVER made for each other. We were good souls, fell in love which was honest, but with time and distance that innocent love died somewhere, we tried to compromise every time we fought, failed to compromise but still sticked with each other because no one other was around of us, the relationship became a long distance pamphlet and “yeh Duriyaa” replaced our ring tones instead of “ tujhe dekha toh yeh…”! And we were apart long back only, so, when last week, she said, “she started liking someone else”! I initially felt offended, fought with her, cried in front of her, did everything to make her miserable, but when I understood it, I only let it go”! Stunned silence! “ Was it so easy for you”!, I screamed, “ Are we in a philosophical world or what!” I mean, look at you, joe, what are you doing ya, you got a new lingo “ The moment of truth” and you are okay losing the person whom you love the most in this word under some misplaced sense of self-righteousness”! “Where is logic in all these guys”! I thundered now!
“Neo, Joe is right! Said a calm Sid! “No two lovers can be together in the long run, if the love becomes episodic, which 90% of the case now is days”! So, understanding it and act according is the best thing I feel”! Bro added, “Hmm, the term “Moment of Truth really hurts isn’t it”! Some may discard it as an excuse, some may get succumbed to it, some may fully realize it and walk with it, but it makes us what we were and clears that inner conflict within us!
That night, we talked it all; we shared each other’s moment of truth! Bro shared his experience of failing to pass the intermediate and how his life changed when he first sold an outdated watch as an vintage watch! ( He felt that the incidence changed his outlook of doing business and has placed him where is he now!), Sid told about the day he understood what exactly high end research is was the moment from which his fall out PHD took a new direction and thus made him a scholar from Kellogg’s! I talked about an incidence from my childhood and how it made me highly claustrophobic! We boozed till 3 am and I slowly saw everyone succumbing to intoxication around me!
Well, 3.30 am, at night, I am writing this in between three other sound slept roomies, 3 bottles of wine, 4 packs of cigs and that big big moon which was looking at all of us since eternity. With the last drag, let me finish this write-up saying that In everyone’s life we have these small and big moments of truth, which not only challenges our conscience but also forces us to give more choices to our lives. However, every moment of truth must be taken progressively as regression can really put us two steps backward! It doesn’t matters sometimes whether it’s an old wine in a new bottle or vice versa, what matters is, taking it, intoxication is inevitable! Only that thought process can result in a progressive outcome from a moment of truth! Adios, Big moon…………………